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Hi! I’m Lilithe Bowman. My pronouns are she/her!
That’s the name I’ve chosen now that I’m on my way in this journey of transitioning.
When did I make this decision?
I committed to it recently, but this has been a long time coming. Ever since I was a teenager, something was not quite right.
I fit in with the boys just fine, I guess, but I was always weird. I tried my best to enjoy the lot I had in life. I didn’t really even consider that it would be possible to be anything but myself. Lots of the supportive wisdom of the time challenged us to boldly be ourselves. But I took that to mean you have to make the best out of the body and circumstances you are given.
Obviously that’s not a recipe for being a very happy person. I was pretty distant throughout highschool. My dad had just died, but I was also grappling with a secondary school experience wrought with 90s passive and active homophobia, etc.
I definitely didn’t feel like it would ever be okay for me to be gay and I didn’t even know that being trans was a thing. I had seen some talk shows and movies featuring intersex people as a kid and was intrigued, and wished I could know what that was like.
There’s a lot to talk about here and if I’m feeling up to it, I’ll fill you in. I may post more about this later.
What should I call you?
I’m starting to look a little more womanly so I’d appreciate being called Lilithe now. Might be better if everyone gets used to it. I also like “Lili” and “Lil” so I’m fine with those too!
What are your plans for…?
At this point I don’t know what I’m going to do about a variety of things. I did buy the domain under my new name for 10 years so, I’m pretty decided on that. I will take care of the various changes as I can and try not to procrastinate on them or put any important name changes / forms off.
What if I make a mistake?
It’s okay to make mistakes. As long as you don’t make it a big deal or anything I’m sure it will be forgiven. I’m sure it’ll happen and I understand completely.
Just make some kind of effort and I’ll appreciate it greatly. It really does make my day to be supported.
What if I’m against it?
If you’re idealistically against what I am doing with myself and my own life, then I probably won’t talk to you. Best for both of us. So if you feel inflexible on the issue of transgender people and transitioning, you’re not my friend. We can talk again when you can cope with the differences of others. Bye.